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i've been talking to four guy friends at different times today. two already have plan setting up their own business, one has a specific goal, another one's struggling about which job offers he should pick. i can't help but wonder, what am i really doing with myself. i want to have short term and long term goal, something to drive myself. sad thing is i can't even define my goal. i'm so lost.

all i do lately is counting down till i return to hk; this seems to occupy the majority of my time. the rest of the time i can be idle in front of tv, or the computer. sometimes i'm not even sure if i'm actually watching. this empty feeling is overtaking my life, no good.