honors

i finally gether myself to ask about how to graduate with honor. apparently it's a percentile system, including people from previous 4 year levels. it's a complicated thing. but when i asked about my chances of getting an honor degree, the response was "you have a fair chance". now what the hell does that mean?! i guess it means if i work my arse off this year and the next then i can get it. but do i want to? that brings me to another question, do i believe i deserve to graduate with honor? most people do heaps more work than me. is it fair for me to graduate with honor? probably not. but i still have this remote hope in the back of my mind. so far i'm traveling smoothly. but i skip most rotation and leave my assignments last minutes. so i guess the answer i always know is: no i shouldn't be an honor gruduate but i still want to be one. conflict (yea, it's the left and right brain again)

another contributing factor to my insomnia, and from personal experience, temazepam doesn't work, so do not premed an animal with benzodiazepam along, waste of time (hang on, they may have less complicated thinking, so who knows ^.^?)